Funeral For My Social Life

by MIDI Myers

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Grudge 06:40
Didn't want to love you at the time Didn't want to think that it was real Didn't want to share, didn't want to care, or open up Didn't want to feel Didn't want to live, at the time Had nothing to give you at the time Didn't know how to tell you at the time, and ran out of time There's never a good time. When I heard distant thunder It woke me from my slumber It all came back, a lightning strike, from far away I can't forget the words you said You were so young, but so was I I made a  promise to myself Don't get hurt … it didn't work I can't forget that other life The day you turned and walked away I've held a grudge My heart a cudgel beating down the door But I don't want to care anymore. I don't want to care anymore. Got your letter, months ago Didn't respond. Didn't want you to know That I still feel raw, even with years to heal, and you won't understand Why we can't just be friends again Anything I do say comes out wrong It's why I can barely write this song Like squeezing paste from a tube that's dried, in months gone by, in years gone by I haven't even tried. Although my smile's well-trained There is that unforgotten pain A distant light, a burning house from far away I can't forget the words you said You were so young, but so was I I made a promise to myself Don't get hurt … it didn't work I can't forget that other life The day you turned and walked away I've held a grudge My heart a cudgel beating down the door But I don't want to care anymore. I don't want to care anymore. This is the response I'll never send This is the rift I'll never mend Let me just tell you what I never said, back then: I loved you so much that I got scared It was the kind of love that creeps down the basement stairs Left among the objects of a life, the clutter kept out of sight But it's still there. I can't forget the words you said But I'll forgive – at least, I'll try I made a promise to myself Don't get hurt … it didn't work I can't forget that other life But I can let it float away I've held a grudge My heart won't budge, but I can still move forward Instead of lying on the basement floor I don't have to stay here anymore.
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"Grudge" is a song I wrote about someone I knew a decade ago. "The ice melts" is a song I wrote and recorded a decade ago, for the same person.

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released March 22, 2016

Keytar, vocals, composition, and production by Maddy Myers.

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MIDI Myers Boston, Massachusetts

I'm an electro-pop musician who goes by "MIDI Myers," a tribute to my actual name (Maddy Myers) and the MIDI pad that I use when I play live, in conjunction with my keytar and live vocals. My lyrics often blend honest accounts of my own life experiences and anxieties with humor and pop culture allusions, all set to keytar leads, electronic drums, and a comprehensive bank of MIDI synths. ... more

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